Feelings

NaBloPoMo Prompt: Are you good at hiding your feelings or is your face an open book?

I think that most people who know me will say that I wear my feelings all over my face. Especially if someone says something that I think is strange in a ‘Are you serious?’ kind of way.

I remember years ago while working in the same unit as a friend of mine our manager sharing an observation with us. She said that during weekly staff meetings if another member of the team said something that was a bit obscure, we would look at one another and our faces read exactly what we were thinking. After that coaching moment, we would just look down and doodle and not make eye contact.

I would like to say that since then I’ve matured and that my facial expressions have gotten better, but they haven’t. And I honestly try not to look at people like they are asking me the dumbest possible question in the world, or that I have close to no interest in what they are talking to me about. But it’s hard. I have a short attention span, and if someone doesn’t engage me pretty quickly then I lose interest just as quickly.

On the other hand, I am good at hiding my feelings in non-face to face encounters. For those who are in my inner circle, I try to place their feelings ahead of mine. If it’s something that I’m not really interested in doing, I will still probably do it for them. And if I’m angry or upset about something that has happened, I usually won’t say it, but my actions probably say it loud enough.

What about you…are you good at hiding your feelings or is your face an open book?