I would like to say that I give people the benefit of the doubt. But I don't.
I would like to say that I trust people until they give me a reason not to trust them. But I don't.
I would like to say that I can forgive and forget. But I don't.
I can admit that I am one of the most difficult and complicated people that I know. To be honest, if I wasn't me I don't know know if I would like me.
One of the greatest gifts I have been given is my inner voice. It speaks to me on a daily basis, but many days I choose not to hear it. It is the voice of caution and reason that protects me from so many things that I am unaware of. Many times I don't understand the reason I am so guarded with my thoughts and feelings, but my inner voice does.
I want to believe that one day I can be a trusting and forgiving person, but my inner voice constantly tells me, and then shows me that this can never be.
And with this, I am fine.